Live Long Enough

Live Long Enough


I can remember always spending time with my grandma, and how she was such a humble, loving, and caring woman. I can remember sitting on the side of her bed for countless hours listening to how she came up in life, and how she took care of her siblings and hardly made 3.oo a week. I can remember her telling me how she will give us her last if that meant we didn’t have to struggle.

I can hear softly saying Live Long Enough


I remember watching her straighten her long beautiful hair, and smelling that hot grease burning from the straightening comb. I can remember of how she talked about God, and how He is a keeper, and how He will never fail us. I can hear saying grandma has so much to be thankful for. I can hear her saying Blazer when you gon’ make some of that banana pudding because you sure make that good. I can hear her saying I love you trailblazer, or my nurse kitty. I can recall her always trying to feed me like I was too darn skinny, or saying baby where are your clothes?

But most of all I remember her saying baby live long enough.

Those words are piercing my heart today, and tears are rolling down my face. What I wouldn't pay to hear her voice, get her advice, do her hair, and kiss her on her cheek, and say granny I love you so, but I tell you people

Live Long Enough.....

and you will know how it feels to lose someone you loved.........

It’s sits as a vivid image in my mind slowly coming into play at its own will. I can remember getting her dressed on that day, kissing her on her cheek, and telling her grandma it’s going to be alright. I can remember my cousin washing her and then we both getting her dressed. Oh Lord we had no clue. I can remember the ambulance coming and taking her on to the hospital. It was like one minute everything was going at such a fast pace. I received a call to hurry back, and that’s when my life took a turn and it never stopped turning, because my heart is still aching and burning. I remember holding her hand until her last breath as each family member was there by her side. It was like someone took my very breath, and I am still waiting to breath. I remember looking at all of those faces and seeing the pain, but also seeing their hidden strength.

See this is so vivid to me. It rests on my heart and it pulls at me, to have her not here with me. One minute you can be up, and the next you can be down. So learn to not take life and handle it with a constant frown. Love those who love you and pray for those who speak ill of you, but always take time out to spend with those who hold the history of our ancestors in the palm of their hand.

But I tell you live long enough!!

I can remember when I finally breathed it was when I could feel her presence all over me. It was like I was in Heaven you see. It was just between her and me. It’s like she breathed her life and breath upon me and told me Blazer, I am happy as I can be. So please stop mourning for me, and just be happy that we must one day meet.


~~~RIP Grandma April 22, 2009~~~ We loved you, but God loved you more!!!

To the world's best Mother, Grandmother, and Great Grandmother